BeGinninG Of tHe End

Thursday, November 30, 2006

Hail me :

Alrite...it has been days since i went home. onli yesterday i went home and today coz tomorrow im on OFF! WOOHOO!

Lazy to go home coz gt nthing to do at home. No phone to contacts. So might just as well stayed in the camp. Better.

Work has been ok for this week. Relax.

Life nt that difficult animore. Hope it will stayed that way.

Now im listening to 'ALWAYS' by Bon Jovi. My fav song.

Ive been listening to Bon Jovi's songs non stop. :D

I tink thats all...there's nthing i cn blog.

searching for the end @* 10:10 PM

Saturday, November 25, 2006

Just got back from werk. Tired man. im not goin to blog abt today. Im goin to blog abt yesterday.

Yesterday was a half day for the drivers and qm since our unit had our 14th anniversary at ORCHID COUNTRY CLUB. It was fun and dirty there. HAHA! Playing paintball paint. Gt 14 teams altogether. Each grp have 5 person. My team was the 1st 2 teams. Drivers against qm (storeman). Each game have 2 half and 2 mission.

The 1st mission was to hit 2 small target at the other team side and the 2nd mission was to bring back a box to our home base same as the other team. 1st half my team nvr get hit...my teammate...JAIME hit the targets and HAFIQ suppose to bring the box back but he been attack so he cant take the box so since I was in the front...I risk my life to bring the box to our base. And I did it! WOOHOO! HERO! My team won the 1st half but then the 2nd half...we lose. So its 1 draw.

After the event...we had lunch served by SEAFOOD BEER GARDEN. The food was tiptop. I was laughing non-stop. Sitting down with frens around the table. Nvr had that kind of feelings b4. Becoz im a guy who does nt have alot of frens. Live alone...die alone. Den I went home and slp.

Woke up at 2pm and called nisa. To ask where to mit later on. Mit her at ct den later on sha came. A few mins later we on our to jamming studio. It was just gd though. Cant concerntrate on my drumming. Was sleepy and tired. But we complete a new song called...'ITS OVER'. Its was nice. The song abt me...again. :D

While we were jamming...a grp of guys were disturbing us and looking at us. Den suddenly they opened the door and asked us whether we wanna join dis sunday gig at guest house? Quite shocking for me actuali. But we decline it. Becoz we nt ready 4 it yet. Sorry guys.

Den aft jamm...we hang 4 while till 6 and accompany nisa to the bus stop. Den its comes to me and sha hang at yshun while waiting 4 her sis. Around 8 i reached home and 4 while later...i ZzZ.

Now i wanna rest.

searching for the end @* 8:47 PM

Monday, November 20, 2006

Im so tired today yet i nvr do aniting. All i do was sleeping away the whole day.

After werk...accompanied my best bud...hizami to the police post to file a report for his stolen camp pass. We were there for abt half and hour. Den i went home while he went back to camp.

Now listening to 'MY HEART' by Paramore. Very nice song. Now downloading alot of ATREYU,AS I LAY DYING,SENSE FAIL and THE AGONY SCENE's songs.

Now im very very very the sleepy man. aiyo!

You noe...last nite...my best bud asked me dis qs of y am i still wearing the ring? Still cant forget abt her? Nt reali...its just dat i treasure the ring very much. Im still wearing it eventhough i lost the love. Its a significant to me. i dont want to lose it.

Hey noe wat? just nw i was browsing my pix file...and i came upon dis...

The poem dat i made myself. The words used to be very meaningful...now its the words which doesnt mean aniting. Gt alot of tings to say yet i dont noe how to put it. Nvrmind.

Hurt by loved is painful bt slowly the pain will fade away.

Now i will lead my life with a smile eventhough hw many probs dat i have now. i will put all the past behind me. Theres no way i can lead my life clinging to the past.

Damn! sleepy like cow! sleepy lyke cow??? nvrmind.

Aite dats all 4 tonite!

searching for the end @* 10:14 PM

Saturday, November 18, 2006

Its a boring day today! My mind was blank. Gt nthing to do except listening to songs...watching videos from youtube and vcd and slp. PS2 is spoilt nid to be repair. Nex mth i will get it repair. So the comp was my entertainment for today till the nex mth.

I did went out for a while. Went to northpoint. Bought my boxers,alarm clock and padlock. Frm just nw i've been munching away the balance of kueh raye. Haiz...

Yesterday i was on half day off. So went up to mit my besties. Nisa and Sha at 2 at yishun. Hang untill 3 den we all went to jamm but wen reached there...it was closed bcoz auntie went to malaysia for a wk. So there was another jamm studio call,'Rythm Masala Jam Studio'. Its futher down. I gt went there b4. It was suck and it gt glass door meaning ppl cn see us jamm. Hate dat. But it was b4 but nw i dont know whether it still the same or nt. We were tinking whether want to jamm or nt? I was tinking dat it will be a wasteful if the equipment is fuck up. Den nisa said since im on off y nt make use of it. Wat she have said did make sense so I ask the owner whether there's any room available. He said yes. The room was rm no. 4. The expensive the room. Even i was surprised. It was nice but it still glass door. The equipment was hot. Expecially the drums. Went i hit it...the sound was powerful. The guitars too. IBANEZ!

Waste a few mins on the...the...alah forgot the name...for the guitar uh. Nisa cant get the pattern of using bcoz it was complicated even sha was having difficulty too understand it. Bt slowly she understand it. We played AT STAKE...LAST CHAPTER and AGONY IN MY DIARY. Nvr complete FOOL FOR YOU bcoz the distortion. YES! The distortion! At last i remembered it. HAHA! Our songs is fucking well gd better than the last time.

I miss the old band. Beautiful Ignorance...5 band piece. We were 'nerds'. Are we? Tink so. At dat time our hit song was,'DID I'. At dat time oso my drumming skill was...rock bottom. Worst of the worst. Nw its better for me uh bt ppl said my drumming skills are up to standard. But i nid to learn more.

Nw its come back as 3 pieces. MY NO DECENCY. Classic Punk Rock. We all have improved a lot...much alot. I tink we nid another guitarist. Shld we?

Aft we jamm...sha and i hang at woodland bt first went to her blk to take a receipt. A cake for his nephew..IJUAN. Den aft collect the cake and bring back to her house...we went to old woodland to alter sha's dickies pants.

Den hang at sha's blk 4 while. Talk abt somthing. Den i went to pasar mlm to buy ramly burger. Den i went home.

searching for the end @* 11:44 PM

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

Im tired...so tired of my life. Everything that was bad come to me in a sudden. My probs just keeps coming to me. My work...alot of troubles. Now waiting to be charged. Well dats wat my warrant said. Den...financial probs. Dont know wat i do w the money. My life...getting worst and worst everyday. Today morning...my hp N72 was stolen. Tell me...isnt dat worst?!

Im just fed up with it! Fed up with my life! Work? I just gave up! I don care abt it animore!Everyday is a damn shit day! I felt shit everyday in work! So as my life. In my mind...its all messed up. I do laugh...I do smile but dat is the outside. Inside? Onli god noes.

My happiness still out there...somewhere. Still nt with me.

Im tired of living...I dont feel lyke doing aniting animore. All i want is to be alone...stupid FAD! U ARE ALONE!!!

Im nt strong animore...Im fragile nw...

Why has my life became lyke dis? So shitty life. Wat did i do wrong?

Bye FAD

searching for the end @* 6:41 PM

Saturday, November 11, 2006

Today its was a jln raye day. Had a fun day. Altogether was 6 of us. Me,Sha,Nisa,Hawe,Abu and Ian.

Fetch Sha from her home. Suppose to mit at 1130 but she's late. Den we off to yishun to mit hawe and abu. Both of dem look so cute together. Den we went to pasir ris,taking bus 39 to nisa's house. I was sleeping in the bus as usual. Reach there around 1:20pm. We were at nisa's house for 2 hrs. Why? It is because we watch a movie called 'FEAST'. The movie quite ok uh but gore.

After nisa's house...we off to simie. Ian's house. At there we watch another movie called 'GARFIELD'. We were laughing away while eating the kueh's. Especially the brownies. Both hawe and abu were lyke a hungry animal wen they saw the brownies.

We were inside the mrt to simei

Den we go to hawe's house at KAMPONG ARANG. Its in the middle of SPORE. Reali! At there...it was raining so heavily that we were all wet. Oredi hungry and wet. Hais...

Inside hawe's house...hawe fried us a fish fingers with cheese. Quite ok uh except for the cheese. But wat to do. oredi so hungry we just eat wat we can.

Me and nisa in the bus

Since the rain has stop...we off to abu's house at woodlands. Inside the mrt...from ct hall till woddlands,we were laughing nonstop. Thanks to me! HAHA! Make all those stupid jokes.

At abu's house...we dont stay too long coz its oredi 8 wen we reached there. Eat the kuehs abit den watch SMALLVILLE den we off to sha's house. We ate mee soto ayam. NICE! We put alot scoop of sambal. I named sha's house and now its called 'CLUB DANGUT'. HAHA! Because outside her house lyke a club with the lampu kelap kelip and the flowers pot. I was dancing wen otw to her door and after coming out of her house. HAHA!

Dikir Barat...mana mao carik? HAHA!

Finally off to my house! Last house of the day. Reached my house around 10. Eating my mum's mee rebus. Mine and theirs fav! Watching senario at suria.

Suppose to a fun shot but i spoilt it. HEE!

The real fun shot. HAHA!

There i was...promoting a malay magazines. HAHA!

Around 1030...both hawe and abu went home. except for sha,nisa and ian. Lpak for a while until 1130.

Got to wake up early tomorow. Gt duty! AARRRGGGHHH! Tired man!

Aite wanna slp nw.

searching for the end @* 11:30 AM

Saturday, November 04, 2006

Finally im back to blogging since SHA been asking me to blog. Lifes have been hard for me these past few weeks. All is abt work. Got alot of troubles lately. 1 by 1 problems comes to me. Haiz...everyday im worried abt myself...scared that i will be seriously in trouble.

Not onli been worried abt myself but worrying abt my blood...HALIM. Tomorrow he will get an order by the head of ktsc. Im just scared that he will go DB(Detention Barrack). ARMY JAILED. I just hoping he's not goin in. Been worried for him...

Getting bored with my work. Seldom driving these past few weeks. Everyday go nthing to do. Den wen were ask abt my mileage and ask y so little and i replied nt having so much dtail. But still got blamed for nt asking for it...but they dont know that i've been asking yet dey don give me. So wat am i suppose to do? Other ppl gt detail everyday even their mileage is more than 2000 plus. mine is just 1700+. Everyday i just sit inside the rest room having my thumb stuck into my ass.

So many things in my head. My work...my life...so messed up.

searching for the end @* 11:34 PM

FAD is the name but call me CHONG.

12 June 1987. so do the count babey!!!

A member of TEAM PAITZ.

black colour.
music that rockin'.
pool.
soccer/street.
movie.

over wearing concept.
politics.
techno.
trance.
dance.
attention seeker.
animal abuser.
unrespectful.

black sunglasses.
~~colour hair.~~
highlight hair.
black bed sheet.
HDTV.
blinds.
black beanie cap.
AFFLICTION Clothing.
laptop/notebook.
new handphone.
playstation 3.
sofa bed.
new room.
lose weight.

as my days restarted
ive lost all my words to speak
cus im broken soul
when you're not with me
i find it hard to move on
but ive gotta carry on
cus you're nt here with me
and my life's almost gone
and now you're
not makin' things so easy
when you thought i wus the one
tryin' 2 set you free
and now, can u even see it?
that i can't hold on
without you anymore
im sorry to say
that i want you to stay
stay here by my side
i promise i wun cry
and that ive made the change
to be stronger
stronger as i used to be
if u stay..
if u stay with me

A LOVING MUM SHE IS...THE ONLY ANGEL OF MINE.

TEAM PAITZ. GUYZ WHO MADE ME LAUGHED,SMILE,IRRITATED,GIVES ME ADVICE,CONSOLES ME AND HAS BEEN UPS AND DOWNS WITH ME.

MY WIFE. MY LOVE. MY EVERYTHING.

WRESTLING. IT'S HAS BEEN IN MY BLOOD SINCE I WAS A KID.I WANT TO BE IN IT.

MY FAV COUNTRY.