im bored...im depressed. i dont know why. This past week im feeling alot better. The feeling of down is goin to be gone. Thats good though but...the feeling of hatred and loneliness is still there. Why do i still tink abt her? Sometymes i feel lyke wanting to sms her,asking her hows she's doin but wats the point of doin that? She shot me through my heart! But then...i just miss her too much! DAMNIT FAD! Get a hold of yourself! Why love have to be so painful when it should be wonderful thing? Thats is one thing. The other thing was when you cant get the girl who you have been loving all these years without her knowing it. You know how its feels? Some may know some may not. Its kills you! It pierce through your heart. With her around,im happy. But wat the hell...she is someone else gf. DAMN! Love...its a wonderful thing in this god's green earth but its painful. How i wish i wouldnt have this feelings. So i will not in this FUCKING state. Lonely...Hatred...Sadness and Solitude. The feelings that i've got now. I wanna kill these feelings that i have rite now include love. But im not strong enough. God pls...give me the strength to pull all of these through. Happy is all i want.