BeGinninG Of tHe End

Thursday, October 26, 2006

eating my bun while listening to SHE'S GONE by STEELHEART.

Had hard time in the jungle last nite. hard to sleep. uncomfortable. no music to entertain me so sleeping is all i can do.

Now im home...den tomorrow im off so as on monday and tuesday.

Last nite...i dreamt abt her AGAIN. Why do i have to remember abt her again where i should be forgeting her. WHY?! Its seem to me that she reali meant to me...meant to my life. But wat she have done to me...was unbearable. Only god knows how painful it was. Till now i still wishing that i and her wld get back together but wen she said she will try to love me....its hurts as if somthing just pierce through my heart. I dont know wat she reali want or wat is she tinking of. It just make me sad tinking of all over again. How when we first to get to know each other...talked on the phone everynite without faild..den we became more than friends. Everything was so perfect but somehow it ended.

Got to make myself strong...help me god. There's no one i can turn to. No one can understand how i felt.

Crying to myself...

Hating myself more and more...

searching for the end @* 10:57 PM

FAD is the name but call me CHONG.

12 June 1987. so do the count babey!!!

A member of TEAM PAITZ.

black colour.
music that rockin'.
pool.
soccer/street.
movie.

over wearing concept.
politics.
techno.
trance.
dance.
attention seeker.
animal abuser.
unrespectful.

black sunglasses.
~~colour hair.~~
highlight hair.
black bed sheet.
HDTV.
blinds.
black beanie cap.
AFFLICTION Clothing.
laptop/notebook.
new handphone.
playstation 3.
sofa bed.
new room.
lose weight.

as my days restarted
ive lost all my words to speak
cus im broken soul
when you're not with me
i find it hard to move on
but ive gotta carry on
cus you're nt here with me
and my life's almost gone
and now you're
not makin' things so easy
when you thought i wus the one
tryin' 2 set you free
and now, can u even see it?
that i can't hold on
without you anymore
im sorry to say
that i want you to stay
stay here by my side
i promise i wun cry
and that ive made the change
to be stronger
stronger as i used to be
if u stay..
if u stay with me

A LOVING MUM SHE IS...THE ONLY ANGEL OF MINE.

TEAM PAITZ. GUYZ WHO MADE ME LAUGHED,SMILE,IRRITATED,GIVES ME ADVICE,CONSOLES ME AND HAS BEEN UPS AND DOWNS WITH ME.

MY WIFE. MY LOVE. MY EVERYTHING.

WRESTLING. IT'S HAS BEEN IN MY BLOOD SINCE I WAS A KID.I WANT TO BE IN IT.

MY FAV COUNTRY.