Happiness? Im sure you all have it in your life. But for me...its no more. Its nothing to me now. I have lost it. It has gone away. Yeah...you do see me laugh...but its not the laugh I used to had. Its just to cover up the sadness in me. Now its hard for me to smile even though Im with my friends.
Even HALIM scolded me for me being a different man. There's no laughter and smile in me. Im not the FAD last time. Used to be a joker. Irritating FAD. Noisy FAD. But now...its just a quiet FAD. Tell me...what can I do? There's nothing I can do. There's no more happiness in me.
Ever since the shits happened to me. About her. About my life. I just want to be alone. Fuck everything that evolves around me.
Can I find my happiness back? Im also not sure. Maybe I will not find it anymore.
Still cant get her over. Heart torn wide open. Bleeding profusely. Feeling hatred for her is deep inside me. SHIT! Why Im crying? You have been crying too much FAD!!! Stop it man!
Sha...thanks for trying to make me happy. Im happy when Im with you. You're a special one...
